2/27/19

If you are knocking me down to make me look to You I can’t go further

I am angry

I know everything is justified if Jesus rose.

It justifies the Old Testament and God’s response to Job.

It justifies the words of Matthew 6.

It justifies God’s comfort to the Psalmist.

It justifies that Jesus truly endured everything on the cross for me.

I don’t want my eternity to lie on an emotionally based faith.

I can go out and see creation and watch people worship and hear about changes lives, but I need to be reconvinced of the Ressurection. 

I do believe in artificial purpose found in something we can’t see being comforting.

The fact that we can’t see it gives us every reason to justify it if we give it to faith. 

I believe in coincidences.

I do believe that things just happen and that our brains find fulfillment in connection.

I do believe that those don’t oppose Christianity, they can all be true. I need to be reconvinced of the Reasurection. It does seem to be the most reasonable first cause (Deism, Judaism, Christianity, Islam) and Jesus makes a convincing case (Christianity) however I need to be reconvinced of the most important part or I can’t go all in for it. “Give me a sign” won’t work. I believe in coincidences. I mean, if you’ll say “challenge accepted” try me. If you’re not real, I don’t think there’s a reason to live. But I won’t live as my reason for You is just to have a reason. If you’re real, support my life. Hold me together until I’m reconvinced.