I think that you are very wise- you told me at Andy’s you wanted me to know everything so I could know what I was getting into if things progressed. So here it is- I know you took a lot out- but I’ve sought you out. Man, you went through hell. Man, I sometimes wish I could take all that away. Man, I went through hell and there’s not a second I wish any of that would go away- our hells brought us to our knees. Yeah it was in gross tears, but it gave us good posture. I look at you like you are my universe and I hope I make you feel that way but you’re not. The Lord is my universe. Frick, you think I’m not scared it will end the same way? You think there’s not a part of me that’s scared I’ve not changed? You think I’m confident you won’t go away? Man I’m bracing. Last time I said I knew how good I had it and it was still gone.. I don’t know how I’m relating that now. I hope you know I’m not asking you to be 100% confident of your entire future, and if I do please slap me. I hope you know I’m not asking you to be 100% confident I’m the one for the rest of your life- when I ask that, it will be down on one knee. It’s cool to see February (22), March (10), April (4), cause I know you post more when you hurt— and maybe you made a new blog to hide some of your hurt from me- that’s ok. To be honest, something I’ve dealt with is- if she can fall in love with someone else while we’re still together, is that a person I want to be with? I’m glad we broke up. I hope we’ve both learned and grown, and I think we have. Here you go- I think you’re beautiful inside and out. What I’ve seen from your character from February till now (I’m trying to make sure I’m seeing from a new perspective) is something I still haven’t seen in any living being, and I’m all about it. I send you hearts and I mean it and you send them back, and I hope I make you happy and I hope I am becoming more and more every day the man God is calling me to be, and frick I’m hoping more and more every day that’s the man God has for you. Let’s not be lazy lovers because of global pandemic- were on a mission and were on the same team. I’m so proud of you baby- I think you can do anything.
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